Where I have been

Okay, so this is a brief summary of where I have been and where I am going. I was always a "chubby" kid. I wasn't what you would call obese, I just needed to lose a few pounds. I was this way through my mid twenties. When I turned 26, I moved to Tampa with my parents and got a job waiting tables. All of a sudden, I started losing weight. I was literally shrinking! At my smallest, I was a size 10. In the span of about a year, I went down to a size 4! I could not believe it. I had been chunky for most of my life up to this point, so I was stunned every time I looked at my new body. I started to change my eating habits and exercise to maintain my new weight. I really ate clean most of the time and started rollerblading a few days a week. So, life went on. I got married and got pregnant. I always maintained that I was going to eat healthy and exercise so I would be able to fit back into my old clothes. Famous last words! Of course I used my pregnancy as an excuse to eat junk. I tried to exercise, but morning sickness sidetracked that. I exercised off and on throughout my second and thrid trimesters. I ended up gaining almost 40 pounds. So, needless to say, after I had my first daughter I was carrying around 20 extra pounds. Fast forward one year. I made a half-hearted attempt to lose weight before I got pregnant with my second daughter. It didn't happen. So I gained another 35 pounds with my second pregnancy. Now after having 2 children, I am almost 40 pounds heavier than I was before I ever got pregnant. It's been frustrating for me. I know what I need to do, but there are 100 more excuses to come up with now that I have 2 children to care for. I guess I am starting this blog more for myself so that I have a written account of my journey. I guess I am waiting for something to click in my head or something like that. I know what I need to do, it's just that I can't seem to get my ass in gear! That doesn't mean that I will ever stop trying, though.