May update

So here it is May already and I am not exactly where I wanted to be at this point in time. Big surprise! I can say that I have lost some weight. My clothes are visibly looser than they were when I began this journey. I have not gotten on the scale yet. I refuse to do that until I can safely get into one size smaller than I am right now. My XL clothes are definitely to the point of being baggy now. My L clothes range from slightly snug to noticeably loose. I tried on 2 pairs of pants that are size M (they are maternity, but I will have to stay with them until I lose more of my pregnancy gut) and they were to say the least, extremely tight. Well, that was a month ago. I tried them on again on Saturday and they were still tight, but not like the sausage casing that they were the first time I tried them on. So I am making some progress, albeit not as quickly as I would like. That is my own fault, unfortunately. The biggest stumbling block at this point continues to be my eating. I just don't understand where all of my willpower went! Seven years ago, I was a size 4 and I had wonderful willpower! I would just look at the way my clothes were fitting and say to myself, "Okay, no more junk food!" And then I wouldn't eat it anymore. I could actually pass it up! Of course, I had a helping hand back then that was banned a couple of years later. You know what I am talking about. The gloriously effective ECA stack. For those of you that don't remember ephedra, it was "stacked" with caffeine and aspirin and it kicked ass at helping me lose weight and conquer cravings. Oh the good old days. I have been doing some research into other products to see if I can find anything comparable to the effectiveness of ephedra. I have found some that look like junk in a bottle and some that actually looked promising. I will definitely keep you posted on those developments. Signing off for now. I will be continuing my weight loss endeavors this morning with another Turbo Fire workout. It's Fire 55EZ this morning.